We well and truely, once again, welcome you to your personal dementia…

I haven’t posted in AGES!!! That’s a shame. Well, it’s not really. Tons of stuff has happened since my last bunch of words but I’m too lazy to tell it all.

Although I am on Ebay atm, just scouring the pages for anything that looks cool!!! 

 

 

 

 

Still on there…

 

 

 

And still on Ebay…

 

 

 

Okay, I give up. There’s not much on there that I want or need very much. I did however find Twilight underwear =) Very cool! But 24 dollars. I don’t think so!

I also don’t have any amazing pictures to post up, so i’ll go on a hunt latr and have a post just FULL of pics! Hannahkin tagged me in a pot nodle pic she took in London. (She’s 18 now btw!!!!) and I do find myself smiling quite alot whenever I see those pot noodles….. xD

I need to go straighten my hair, mum is giving me the evil glare of death! Besides I’m having my eyebrows waed in like 10 minutes so maybe surfing the net was not the best thing to be doing right now…. Alas, my poor hamster style eyerows are being Killed.! It’s animal abuse! Getting rid of the hamsters that have grown and taken refuge above my blue eyes… =’(

 

*coughs* fine.

 

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so what if you can see the darker side of me?

Emmes party last night =) Was tres, tres bon! And Oh My God!!! She has PHITT friends! me and Nats were like woah fitty alert. Unfortunately our fit guy sensors seem to have gone a little bit haywire these past few weeks. I think they are screwed. But last night proved to me that they are fixed and continuing to find us hot guys who actually DON’T look like girls, which is a huge bonus!

Also, i’ve been thinking about when we go to that gay bar we are all going to. Well, me, Nats, Lufii and Hannahkin thatis. Theres just 1 problem… None of us are gay. Lou is Bi but it’s agay bar, not a bi bar. What about us straight  girlies? I don’t wanna spend he nigh geting hit on by homosexual ladies!!! So that’s got me a bit worried. I could always say i’m a man who looks like a girl just so i could get with a hotty gay man. But that would just be weird. He might attempt to butt rape me. Okai so that’s gonig a tad OTT but you never know in this day and age.

I’m in love. Actual love. Love so good that i feel dizzy and faint when i think about me being in love. Who is it you ask me? well see for yourself: Meow! Freddie Stroma!!!! =) ding ding ding my fit alarm is going through the roof! He plays Cormac in harry Potter but My God! so PHITT! ^^

That is all my comrades. Oh wait, there’s another thing but it’s not as good. So mum and Moll have decided to hold a family meeting at 12 to discuss Molie getting my room. It’s my frikin room! Not yours you curly haired devils child! She will NOT have my room! it’s mine! mine! mine! no one elses! It’s getting decorated! I NEED my bedroom! If i’m gonna start paying rent then i’m going to pay it for the room i’m in, not some teeny tiny room!

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how did we get here? when i used to know you so well….

 

You wanna know why this is cooler than Hannahs dildo llama thing? Cuz it’s a raver! all techno styleeee! Not only that, it’s a pokemon too! Uber Orsum if i do say so myself!

so tell me how this should be!

Sundays are rubbish for many reasons.

• they mark the end of a crappy week, welcoming in yet another crappy week
• if you get drunk on a Sunday, peole frown at you and think of you as an alcoholic
• pubs close WAY too early
• There is NEVER anything good on Tv, or on the internet (okai, that last bit was a lie)
• I hate the letter S anyway
• It’s just runnish. Sundays, i hate you!
• oh yeah, it also means a new wek of work, torture and skwl for you poor buggers who still have to go…

So all in all, sundays are gay! and not in the homo kind of way. Gay in the “oh my god, thats so crappy i just want to lick that hobos face” kind of way. And jeez, that is pretty gay.

I like this by the way, ‘m going to invest in on. Unless omeone buys me one first. Then i’ll still by one and they can ave transformer raves:

Why am i rambling on like this? i don’t no. Maybe cuz coming off pills sucks, and maybe it’s cuz relationships suck. Men suck. Each other. Things get so screwed up even if you havent said or done anything. I just miss everything that i used to have. Everything that for some reason has been lost, fcukin great times. Not. *sighs*I need a make out. Fast.

On another note, nothing of immense funnyness has been stumbled upon on my lappentoppen except for charlie the unicorn 3. I do find that rather humourous, but yeah. I find bent twigs funny so don’t quote me on that. I’ve also been invited to “suck Danielles lollipop!” on facebook. what kind of request is that?!?! Is she a man? Does she have a shlong? no. i don’t think so. Therefore, no pot noodling girls for me! No sir!

Sometimes, i wish i was a lesbien. It would solve alot of problems. BUT, i’ve found tht making out with girls, is no different than making out wiv guys, so i’m gonna stick with guys. They are easily disposed of, and they are more likely to not bitch about you afterwards Ooooh funkyzeit!

Bed time. Facebook first, just incase a certain some one comes online. then i can pounce, lick them, then hurredly go offline before they know what hit them! Rawr! here i come =)

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Danger, Danger on the spot =)

I am currently led on my bed, just been on polyvore, creating random works of art which would give picasso and Banksy a run for their money. I’m contemplating reading some more of Breaking Dawn which is beside me, threatening to jump up and wollop me in the face if I don’t stop typing and start reading… I’m afraid….. =’(

Feeling rather crappy though atm, you probs don’t know, seeing as i haven’t mentioned it on here before, but i am trying to wean myself off of my antidepressants which i’ve been on for the past 3/4 years. It’s VERY difficult. I’ve been feeling really down, suicidal, bitchy, snappy, withdrawn etc…. Fcukin great! 0.o However, i have found something that keeps making me giggle..okay, rather it makes me laugh so much my sides stat to hurt and my eyes water… Hang on, just let me upload it… DAMMIT I can’t upload it… GRRR oh well, here’s a link xD

http://icanhascheezburger.files.wordpress.com/2007/11/funny-pictures-hamster-kiss-glass.jpg

I had work today, ell I guess you can’t really call it work as I wasn’t actually at my place of work, well i was but i wasn’t really working, I wa gathering useful information for when I  DO start my work. =) So yeah! It was pretty good, crammed LOADS on info in and the kids are SO orsum, i really cannot wait till I start this apprenticeship!!! The people are lovely, I couldn’t ask for more. I’m also babysitting tomorrow night so hat should be rather groovy.

OOOH! another thing! I bought stormbreaker on the DS yesterday for less than a fiver! Dang i’m great at spotting a bargain! Hellz yes I am indeed! It’s osum and Alex Pettyfer….. *drools* I would Lick him…. o.0 amongst other things…… o.0 Okay……..

Shexy Hexy. I’d tap that!

Still working on dad to let me have my double bed. He is funding it so has to agree to letting me have one first! Although he is hellbent that I’m gonna get preggers. Yeah, cuz a double bed is going to impregnate me daddy xD LOL! He WILL see sense and bo to down to ine and mums constant attempts at persuasion! Give in dad and Buy me that lovely, wrought iron double bed frame!!!! It’s SO nice! And totally matches my new colour scheme in my room. Black and white, with some hints of red accessories. I should be a room designer. I’m the best!

Tired, sleepy, exhausted, knackered, every other word I can think of that means the same thing. Here’s oping i’ll snap out of my weird moods. Maybe I’ll even get round to admitting my small, VERY SMALL, attraction to Josie to Hannah….. Then again.. maybe not……. xD

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Silence can You hear me?

Okay, Just Like I promised Nats I’m letting go, i’m giving up, there will be no more tears, just more drunken orsumness. FCUk noob. You weren’t worth it. You’ll see

Ty Nats for helping me realiz that. Hannahkin and Lufii sorry for being a bitch and really miserable. I can’t help it, just been feeling like shizz. You know how it is….

But not any more ^_^

Love you all. Over and Out. =D

we’ll shout it loud and clear…

Number one Dancemat champion =)

 

That is All. =)

Don’t resent me, and when you’re feeling empty…

Okai, so my blog is slowly becoming a crypt. It’s dead. There’s nothing on here and i can see the cobwebs. I know that i should probs get round to asking Hanahkin to help me spruce it up a bit but i’m too lazy…. that and i’ve been out alot. A hell of alot actually. :/

This week especially has been busy! First time ever that my week has been full. Pretty ace huh? Monday I…can’t remember what i did… Hang on, i HAVE to remember!!!! But I can’t!!! dammit! I know there was something though… Oh well, if i remember i can just update you =)

Tuesday i had my date with Jordan is Brizzol! Was hella rad, went to the Banksy exhibition and as a result, i know which print of his i want in my new room when it’s decorated! So yeah, but i was SO frikin nervous! That was my first proper ate and i’m scared i screwed up big time. There was so much i wanted to sayand so much i wanted to DO but i couldn’t bring myself round to carry them out Lmao. He was quiet too so atleast it wasn’t just me being silent. I don’t have anything against silence though, i like it but I don’t know, not sure if he did or not…. Havnt really spoke to him since… and that’s making my stomach hurt right now.

That’s another thing! I haven’t been eating much cuz i keep getting butterflies in my tummy =O Bu they seem to be going now, only wheni think that i haven’t sene Jord since Tuesday does my stomach start doing these weird rolling movements. I’s odd and it feels funny xD

Wednesday i had work 12:30 to 3 so that was pretty good, wasn’t too busy and i got to work with ppl i don’t usually work with, which was fun. =)

Thursday was prom!!!! OMG where to start!!!! I was NOT looing forward to it at all, but the whole evening was soooo good! The meal was nice too. I had leek and potato bake with veg and some bread. I got slightly drunk, but not OTT as i normally do. Lufii met up with this dude which i personally didn’t agree with, i mean you can see him whenever, this i ur yr13 prom, ur final 1, youre not going to see most of these ppl again and u’d rather go off with some random guy you met on a drunken night. But hey, i love Lou so she can do whatever she wants.

Friday i had work all day which was kind of a mistake to agree to… Morning after prom whch  ididn’t get home till like 2am and then i had work at 9 ALL day, (well till 3) even Stef and Tracy thought i wa crazy for wanting to work the day after prom. But I plowed on and even got paid. almost 100 pounds so i’m not goingto start complaining now. Friday night!!!! Oh yay! went to London road inn with my BBFZ, Nats, Dale, Paul and Bobbie. The usual group of yr 12s ere thee too. Drank double vodka + coke and blackcurent sour shots all night. And i don’t remember a thing! hurray! But I do remember wrapping my legs around Josie as he piggybacked me home. Not everyday you get a drunken 18 year old crushing you with her thighs is it… =P Poor lad…..

Then Saturday moring, i awoke completely dazed, trying to remember how i managed to get home, undressed and into bed. Buti got up, washed, all that jazz, opened the back door to go and sawmy headphones, a kinder egg + toy and a keyring off my kys on the floor outside. I was like “WTF okai…” I swear I was still drunk on my way to work, walking all zig-zaggy down North Street. Good Times obvo. Nats and Juggins both said i was rather drunk and that i was “AWESUM!” So yeah, work again, all day, usual stuf, usual customers. Home. Sleep. Wake up. campout. Only got a bit tipsy there whic hwas good as i think the hangover from Friday night was kicking in…

Which brings me to today, Sunday! I woke up frikin early cuz of my dumb sister being noisy, geting ready to go play a cricket match against Trowbridge! She better win or i’ll eat her. Read 6 chapters of Eclipse, went on Polyvor, now i’m on here. I’m going to reply to Ruth’s email now, STAR WARS EXTRAVAGANZA tomorrow! hurray Lmao! I want cake! I think she said it was somethin like 12.8 hour alltogeter. How her, Alison and Fraser made me agree to participate is beyond me…..

Oh well. I leave you with this. Just look at it. And Take in it’s glory!

And you brighten up the world with your eyes!

I just think my char looks uber when I do that XD Hence why I was sad enough to printscreen it and put it on here. It’s like she does thus weird rave, techno dance. But obvo you can’t tell from this photo… Just trust me on this…

So yeah. That’s all I wanted to do. Also htere’s this weird bollard near Wok Express hich I am going to rename the Rave post. There will be pics, maybe a Vid when I can make my phone post up. There will also be an Uber rave tunage going with it. ust need to figure out which one to have…..

 

Bask in this Orsum thing I have posted for now. Yes. It is cool. Yes I do play Rappelz. It’s the only one! apart from Requiem bloodymare. But thatIS gorey and has blood in so it’s ok right? I can play it?…. I’m Gonna get disowned for this…

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Everyone wants to be loved, to be loved…

It’s erm…..Sunday I think….. I THINK it’s Sunday, even thoug i’m hoping it’s Monday cuz I have only just got up and Mum told me do some chores but I wasn’t really listening as I was asleep. :/

maybe I should wake up earlier, Or just take LOADS of caffeine pills OR stay drunk! Oh wait, i ended last night sober.  WHAT THE HELL?!?! But Dude is such a prick. I don’t see why he has to be such a fag! Leave Malen alone you frikin physcho!!! She was gettig upset I was just getting pissed off at the Tard!

Awww saw Jordan again Friday =) Yayums, only the 2nd time but he just so yummy! That was a good night, well, most of it. I remember having my hysteria episode, thanks Hnnahkin, Lufii, Nats and Bobbie for helping and sorting me out there. You mean the world to me ^_^ Oh yeah, and having alcohol spilled over my top whish led to…. it suddenly dissapearing. =O shock horror! Why do my tops always dissapear when i’m drunk?! Ok, it was the first time in ages that it’s happened…I’m not a whore By the way. Just pointing that out!

I have no more A levels! Since last Thursday I am free. Completely! That is all on this subject. No more exams. Ever. Haha people. haha! =D *raves a little bit*

I have to go now… need to shower, get dressed and attempt to remember hat it was mum said to me this moning….

Oh wait… wow! I have a stella artois glass! Damn i’m so sneaky when I teal things off of benches. It’s for my dad. He collects awesome drink glasses. And this one is ORSUM!!!

I lurve you all. Peace. War. All that jazz.

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